It’s like you want to be left alone but at the same time you want someone’s attention. You don’t feel like putting effort into a conversation. Your mind is occupied with so much junk that you don’t even know what exactly it is that you’re thinking about. Yeah, that mood sucks.
Don’t tell me you care. Don’t tell me you love me. Don’t tell me you’ll be there. Don’t tell me I’m special. Don’t tell me you are interested in me. Don’t tell me I’m the only one you want to be with. Show me.
I’m tired of getting yelled at all the time. I’m tired of always being compared to someone. I’m tired of caring for others who don’t give a shit about me. I’m tired of the drama, rumors, and the annoying people that are around me. Do you feel tired when the one thing you want is almost in your grasp but you miss it? But out of everything I’m tired of people who pretend to care about me so they could take advantage of me.
I wish i can have someone just come up to me and just hug me and say that everything will be okay. I wish that the things I regret doing will be a memory that would just fade in my mind. I wish that one person that I always have on my mind will think of me than more than a friend. I wish that all the suffering I have would just go away. I wish that i can go in the past and stop myself from being the sad and suffering person that I am today.